对，我叫 Roti Canai Telur Bawang

进了拉曼大学，不知不觉已经一个学期，期末考又来了。
这里没有什么考试的埋怨，只是想让大家见识见识社会，金钱换来的东西都是成正比的。
你付这样的价钱，别想要求太多。

拉大的食堂，杂饭鸡饭真的不错，价格合适，所以我没有怨言。
反而呢，在面包啊小食啊这些东西上，却跟我皮包过意不去。
在此附上一个价值为RM1.60的面包：

看看这面包，第一眼应该会觉得很不错哦，还有芝麻，而且隐约看得到里头的香肠，对吧？
对对对，里面的却是香肠。但是不是条。换个角度：

还有千岛酱咧！这时候的你们应该会想：弘凯啊，你不要这么挑剔啦，有面包吃不错了，还是看起来挺不错的嘛！
诶说回来，香肠有了，量词是条啊，怎么我说不是条呢？

看看照片再说！

因为不是条！是半条！
香肠从上面的角度看，以为是完完整整好好香香吃起来爽爽的，岂知道是半条！
另外一半不见了！

芝麻很多？请重新考虑！

只是摆放在你看到那一面的面包，是有芝麻的！
另外一面，跟剥了壳的鸡蛋一样，滑嫩嫩的！（SKII）
高招高招。


整体来说，用餐的心情有点烦躁，加上丁点的无奈和无限的佩服，真是百感交加。
一个面包，可以对我如此大影响，真是不简单。
明白吗？一方面气愤，很像被欺骗了，另外一方面就像上了一堂人生课，充实又富有智慧。
脑袋归脑袋，肚子依然不饱，而且味蕾也申述，为什么整体感觉很单调，很像听unplugged音乐。因为很大部分时间是在嚼面包，香肠和芝麻的成分，比例不成正比。

所谓一分钱一分货，非常理解这道理。
来到八达岭再也这地方，我已经有心理准备不会迟到便宜又好的东西了。
所以只是稍微的诧异了一下，就回过神了。
谁叫我口袋没有几分钱。


我没有投诉，也不是埋怨。
想跟大家分享的，是，东西不可貌相。
Looks can be very deceiving.
这跟我一样。
很多人说我丑，其实，我只是帅得不明显而已。

你会不会忽然的出现，在街角的咖啡店？
:)

一个人

一個人　眺望碧海和藍天～

孤单。
这两个字，似乎是病疫，人人皆害怕染上，更害怕让人知道。
为了逃离孤单，选择了接近人群，接纳接受人群，无法尝试一个人的滋味。
哪里多人，就往哪里去。无路可走，就寻找一样恐惧的人，互相安慰，自己告诉自己你没有孤独。
渐渐的，每每一个人的时候，就充满罪恶，社交网站充斥着你的身影，寻找那一丝的依赖。

一个人的滋味，为什么会难受呢？
那是你自个儿定义的吧？
一个人的甜，是因为你没有尝试，所以并不知道它的存在。
一个人看电影，一个人走街，一个人和咖啡，都是悠闲自在的表现。
那种感觉，是电话一直在身边打扰你所体会不到的。
谁规定一个人的电影就不能感动落泪？
谁说一个人走街一定是怪胎？
一个人的咖啡，苦中带甜，越品越醇，越醇越香。

抱歉，这不是没人爱。
在这个年代，只要你在，总会一群人随时在身旁等待。
选择不依赖，然后变得更自在。

很久以前，我尝试一天不说话了。
下个目标，就是一个人的一天，体会普通一个人的感觉。
有人要一起参与吗？ =)


我只是想离开

HOW TO BE ALONE by Tanya Davis

If you are at first lonely, be patient. If you've not been alone much, or if when you were, you weren't okay with it, then just wait. You'll find it's fine to be alone once you're embracing it.

We could start with the acceptable places, the bathroom, the coffee shop, the library. Where you can stall and read the paper, where you can get your caffeine fix and sit and stay there. Where you can browse the stacks and smell the books. You're not supposed to talk much anyway so it's safe there.

There's also the gym. If you're shy you could hang out with yourself in mirrors, you could put headphones in (guitar stroke).

And there's public transportation, because we all gotta go places.

And there's prayer and meditation. No one will think less if you're hanging with your breath seeking peace and salvation.

Start simple. Things you may have previously (electric guitar plucking) based on your avoid being alone principals.

The lunch counter. Where you will be surrounded by chow-downers. Employees who only have an hour and their spouses work across town and so they -- like you -- will be alone.

Resist the urge to hang out with your cell phone.

When you are comfortable with eat lunch and run, take yourself out for dinner. A restaurant with linen and silverware. You're no less intriguing a person when you're eating solo dessert to cleaning the whipped cream from the dish with your finger. In fact some people at full tables will wish they were where you were.

Go to the movies. Where it is dark and soothing. Alone in your seat amidst a fleeting community.

And then, take yourself out dancing to a club where no one knows you. Stand on the outside of the floor till the lights convince you more and more and the music shows you. Dance like no one's watching...because, they're probably not. And, if they are, assume it is with best of human intentions. The way bodies move genuinely to beats is, after all, gorgeous and affecting. Dance until you're sweating, and beads of perspiration remind you of life's best things, down your back like a brook of blessings.

Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you.

Go to an unfamiliar city, roam the streets, there're always statues to talk to and benches made for sitting give strangers a shared existence if only for a minute and these moments can be so uplifting and the conversations you get in by sitting alone on benches might've never happened had you not been there by yourself

Society is afraid of alonedom, like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements, like people must have problems if, after a while, nobody is dating them. but lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless and lonely is healing if you make it.

You could stand, swathed by groups and mobs or hold hands with your partner, look both further and farther for the endless quest for company. But no one's in your head and by the time you translate your thoughts, some essence of them may be lost or perhaps it is just kept.

Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, perhaps all those sappy slogans from preschool over to high school's groaning were tokens for holding the lonely at bay. Cuz if you're happy in your head than solitude is blessed and alone is okay.

It's okay if no one believes like you. All experience is unique, no one has the same synapses, can't think like you, for this be releived, keeps things interesting lifes magic things in reach.

And it doesn't mean you're not connected, that communitie's not present, just take the perspective you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it. take silence and respect it. if you have an art that needs a practice, stop neglecting it. if your family doesn't get you, or religious sect is not meant for you, don't obsess about it.

you could be in an instant surrounded if you needed it

If your heart is bleeding make the best of it

There is heat in freezing, be a testament.

高低

有些人说，希望越大，失望越大。
也有人说，爬得越高，跌得越痛。
最好是别抱着太大希望，也别爬得这么高。

可是我听了，总不是滋味。
当我遇到问题难题的时候，我都会问我自己，看看到底有没有冲突。
失望大，就可以不希望了吗？
如果仅仅因为一次失望，就剥削自己抱着大希望的权利，是不是对自己不公平？
这样做，笨不笨？
我才18，这么早就判自己死罪，岂不是妄为父母的儿子？
那我怕不怕失望呢？

我（个人意见）总觉得失望了，是因为你有放心去做，可是却没有达到理想的效果。
（所以那些努力都没有的人，抱歉请别跟我说失望，没权力）
有尽量去做了，结果不如意的话，失望是难免的，但是却不应该放弃再度的希望，和再度的尝试。
因为放弃了那个权力，只是一种笨的体现。
我选择保留我所有的权力，尤其是那些我可以自己给我自己的权力。
很多东西没得选，可是这个，可以。给自己机会，就是让自己更进步。（那些放纵自己的人，以为机会一直都会来所以不珍惜的人，不被归纳入内）
怕失望，我的解决方法就是失望多多次，失望够够力，然后让失望麻痹自己，就会更加好了。
那时候的我充满希望，每一次的失望都会被抵消。因为注重的是我一次比一次更加免疫。
哈哈，而且天不会这么坏的。
上天整你，到了一段时间也会无聊。
不停失败？
没关系，跟他死过。
这就好像赌博的其中一样学问（或者叫歪理）。
听过吗？
玩大小，一直下大，或者一直下小，你的运气一定会来的。
赌一块钱输了，再下一样的，筹码双倍，赌两块钱。输了？赌四块钱，再输，就八块，再输，就十六块。
持续的这样做，比如说你下十次“大”，肯定会有一次中的。那次，你就连本带利一次过拿回，立刻收手。
上天要跟你玩，你就跟他死过。

再来就是爬爬爬。
爬的越高，就跌得越痛。
这，难免。
痛也要承受，因为上面的风景很漂亮，所以值得。
他们也说，下面的很不错啊！不要到时候焦头烂额，才发现下面的更加是宝哦！
也许你对，下面的很不错。
应该要知足了吧。
但是年少轻狂，连山顶的景色你都还没看，你就直接放弃，也未免太不热血了吧？！
这样也是妄为少年，年少不来点疯狂的，不来点痛的刺激的辛苦的，你很像老阿pek咧！
这样的话，可能让我30年后说吧。
现在的我不怕痛，痛就够够力来，痛够了，就麻痹了，就可以跟他死过了。

这个年龄，不是让我那边自叹世事无常，为赋新词强说愁。

所以现在我要爬爬爬，上山顶看。

放弃你，等于放弃我自己。

解压

压力。
这个东西，应该每个人都会有，每个人都体会到。
生活从来就不容易，大家都会有压力。
巴士阿叔有，你有我有。

可是在这么多人之中，我最不耐的就是每天都投诉压力的人。
今天说有压力，明天出去纾解压力玩耍走街唱K乱逛，全干完，钱花光。
两天后，又来投诉压力，又要出去玩。
明明就是懒惰，把我们这些真正受压力的，让你给污浊了这个词。

在我看来，真正受压力的，都没有怎么出声。
因为他们知道，埋怨于事无补，更加显得自己懦弱。
你看那些担当重要职务的人，没有三五两天，就吵这吵那，wee waa 鬼叫。

虽然是facebook罢了，但是抱歉我受不了你。

请不要把压力当作你的借口。

释怀说了太多就成真不了。

Critical Thinking

It's nearly 3 months already, after studying in UTAR, getting to the end of the semester.
So in this first semester, we have a subject called Critical Thinking.
Basically what we did in lecture of this course is lepak and hang out, and tutorial is as relax as ever. Credit hour is only 2 hours, it's not too hard to understand and no calculations involved, just some terms and how to implement them.

For this special course, we had our first ever Uni presentation.
It was fun, well at least for me. New experience, and the kind and soft Miss Suvitha is the main experience. She even borrowed me her textbook! I hear Miss Santhai from other classes gave some group 0 marks, well so much to them for scoring 4.0.

In this specific presentation, we were asked to present any topic that is arguable, that is relevant and of current issues.
So me, lame tart, Zi Song, Chun Lim and Chun Ming formed a group, discussing the topic "How should students choose their course of study?" which we think should be based on career prospect.
Enough of our boring topic, what is more interesting in the presentations are most probably the Q&A part.
It is where people keep quiet so they can really listen to what others are saying, not chatting away like it's no one's business.

me, being me.

So, being me, I can't stand sitting there listening to others giving false statement, and arguing with no solid evidence nor do any effort to prove they are right.
Again, being the annoying me, I asked quite a lot of questions to them, and that probably will get me into trouble I guess LOL.
but hey, it's more fun doing that.

another main reason for that is, because while our group was presenting, the guy from group 18, which likes to debate with humor (hey I actually like your way) asked me the million dollar question, so I can't stop the cycle right?
It's bad being the COMBO BREAKERR!!!
He likes to ask questions, but I don't know either he's purposely giving me chance to increase my marks, or just plain ignorance to ask that question that is definitely refutable and winnable by me.
Well sometimes he did asked some quite OK questions IMO. For those not so intelligent questions, I don't know if he did that to help that group or just want to make the atmosphere better.
anyways, with him at least it's not that boring.
Thanks man!


This course is quite OK actually, I like something that I can grasp. This is something I can get a hold of.
Especially with Miss Suvathi's textbook, thing's are clearer and I like learning new terms.
Presentations are OK for me, but Foundation in Science only has 1 each semester I guess.


Lastly, thanks to all my teammates for the great job, I think we are at least top 3 in the presentation!
:)



ps: I don't sign, because I don't sign off. Because I don't.

张栋梁成名曲

今天我们来谈付出。
很多人会说一分耕耘一分收获。
其实在我眼里，这个是很客观的看法。
一分耕耘，并不一定会得到一分的收获。

emo者最爱看的观点就是爱情。
好我们来说说爱情～
爱情，总所周知都是要付出要为对方牺牲的。
但是往往人们太在意回报了。如果回酬率不够高的话，难免会有不满意的现象发生。
这就说说当正在追求对方的时候，什么法宝都使尽，可是却无法博得投怀送抱，竟然老羞成怒，转头唱衰对方，落得自己难堪。
还有就是在恋爱当中的情人，妒忌心特重，别人说爱所以在意，所以担心。可是我看来你仅仅只是害怕你投资失败，让你血本无归，可是不甘放弃。这就有点像赌博了。开头输了好多，但是不愿意放弃还是继续玩，就是因为不甘之前输了，总想要赢回去。到头来就是遍体鳞伤咯。
明白我的比拟吗？

说说读书。
读家这家伙事呢，真的需要点天资。这里根本没有一分耕耘一分收获。
为何呢？一定很多人不赞成。
你看看，那些聪明的人，总是随随便便上课，得空打打dota，浪费时间吹水，就能够金榜题名了。
至于其他的人呢，尤其天资较弱的，付出了许多许多，比普通人还要努力，只换到中庸的成绩，不上不下，过得去。
所以这些东西是没有“上天是公平的”那些废话。上天就是不公平的，你吹啊？（你又何奈？）
有人会说：涅，那个谁谁谁，他很努力的咧！你看，他付出了许多许多，现在终于如愿以偿，多么多么成功了呢！
对不起，这不是一分耕耘一分收获的表现。
这是因为这位勤劳的兄弟，他付出了一百分耕耘才获得一分收获。为了弥补这项缺陷，他的解决方法就是付出一万分耕耘，才终于获得一百分的收获。
如果天资优质的人以同样的努力，付出一万分耕耘，很可能他早已飞上青天，当了包青天。
看到分别吗？get what i'm saying?
天资不好？你不是不能够成功，你成功的机率跟所有人一样高，只是你付出的比率要多很多很多。
这，不是公平的体现。仅仅是成功的另外一条道路。

做人这一回事呢，更加巧妙啦。
付出呢，最好不要要求回报。
为人也好，为事也罢。付出，只求对得起自己，做到最好就Ok了。
回报？总是天意弄人的。
很多付出一百万，得到零回报的，例子多的是。
所以你为一个人付出的时候，记得咯，很大可能性你是白做的。
而且，付出和得到不会得到正比。请你记住这一点。


说我很悲观？错，这是最乐观的生活体现。

我爱付出，因为我付出多是不求回报。否则，我不会付出，哈哈。
我付出的时候，是因为我真心为他/她/它，而且希望他/她/它达到最佳效果，获得最好成绩，但是并不强求一切一定要完好。
因为我明白了这个大道理。
我付出的时候，都是全心去付出，不受约束。
想想那些求回报的人，总是精打细算，为你付出都是有限，因为已经算好了付出这么多，你应该会回报我这么多，这样就够了。

付出，成了真正的付出。

我看很多人会拿这个借口不去努力吧。会说，反正努力了都得不到收获。
那样只是你懒惰，请不要拿我的文章当借口。
读书懒惰就是懒惰，没有耕耘希望有收获？等死比较适合你。
对不起，你不够天资，不会有收获的。唯一弥补的办法就是付出更多倍。
你有毅力吗？没有也是要有，不然不用成功。